stead·fast·ness
Dictionary result for steadfastness /ˈstedˌfastnəs/ noun noun: steadfastness
As I began to prepare for this new year, I felt the Lord preparing for a year where I would grow in steadfastness. This last year was filled with many mountain tops. From my last year in college, to graduating, to working a rewarding summer job with The Hartford Project, to having an internship that led to a dream being fulfilled; serving in Africa, to getting my first “real” job, to settling in an apartment that was so divinely orchestrated…. There was a lot of mountain top experiences & it was incredible. However, when I began to pray about this year I did not really see anything big, I just heard the word steady and steadfastness. So I began to look in scripture to see what this looked like. What I found was that similarly to the Google definition above, it was about being firm and unwavering. It was about obedience and trusting the Lord in all things. To not fear, but to be focused on the Lord. Psalm 51:10-12 Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me. Do not cast me from your presence or take your Holy Spirit from me. Restore to me the joy of your salvation and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me. The Lord has begun to teach me about steadfastness. The ability of trusting him in the season when I do not know what is coming next. To be “faithful where my feet are” to be invested in where I am so that the Lord can prepare and equip me for what is to come. How freeing is that? The Lord has an amazing plan that he has created for you to walk in even before you were born. Through this past year I have seen his hand so evidently in my life through the mountain tops, but I began to fear and be distracted in this preparation season. Comparison has been such a distraction for me these past couple months. Comparison of others post grad life. Some of them are living their dreams! Which is great but I began to wonder, How am I not there yet? I graduated too! How can I get there? I was consumed with striving and I did not even realize it until recently. Striving for success in the my own eyes and being totally DISTRACTED from what the Lord has for me RIGHT HERE, RIGHT NOW. The enemy has been using this distraction to get me to wallow in doubt. Doubting this season, the purpose and believing the reality that I am not where I should be. But, I must remember how I got here.… through all the doors that the Lord went before me to open. So I must FIX MY EYES on JESUS alone. Not others, not my friends, family, Instagram but on the King of Kings and the Lord of Lords. He has given me every experience I have ever had and may I trust him to continue to open up the next doors in his PERFECT timing. Forgive me Lord for missing what you have for me here. May you fill me with your peace so I may be your vessel to expand your Kingdom in this season. When I take the time to be reminded of all the new blessings of this season, I am overwhelmed. Amazing coworkers, great landlords, an incredible church community, mentors in all aspects of life, the ability to continue friendships, an opportunity to continue to learn about the coffee business, an opportunity to potentially further my education, an new opportunity to travel with my current job—The Lord is FAITHFUL. He knows exactly what we need when we need it. I am so thankful to serve a Savior who sees me, hears, and allows me to wrestle with His will. Success in Jesus’s eyes is a surrendered will. Dear Lord, Forgive me for doubting your perfect plan and this season. I have seen your hand so evidently in my life that there is no other explanation than you. God, may you give me new eyes to see your purpose. May you continue to grow me in steadfastness. That I would be obedient and faithful to your will here. I am excited for you to take me deeper and allow me to grow in this season. I love you my King. May your will be done on earth as it is in heaven. Amen
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August 2019
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